Monday, January 22, 2007
Mitchell said i should come update my blog. So i come update my blog. Apparently im sort of employed in my uncle's office as an office boy. Lots of odd jobs and the pay aint great either. But at least its a job. The office is at tanjong pagar btw so if any one working near and want to have lunch together can msg me. If not i just have to get used to eating lunch alone i guess.
Hehe. I dunno why i feel relieved employed even when work is tiring.
posted at 4:38 AM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
2nd time blogging in 2 days. maybe i am feeling weird. all i can say now is life is really fucked up. lemme show u how.
first. im still jobless. i got fired even before i started work. cool right. wednesday got a recruit express consultant from JE say got a job at a particular company at 5.50 per hour. pays a bit low but its still a admin job anyhow. so i rushed down all the way to find her and signed a one-sided contract with them. then on friday. the consultant suddenly called say the job was on hold due to some "system error". which i translated to mean that they no longer needed ppl. then i suddenly became jobless again. whats worse is that i got a few job offers after i accepted that stupid job that i rejected as i thought i really had a job. final conclusion is i have to restart the whole job finding progress all over again.
second. its the one i dun wan to talk about. i just read someone's blog and well the way he phrase it makes me and my mother seem money mined about everything. its ok. i give up trying to control the way ppl tink of me. every pair of parents are unique. although i might not argee with what my parents want me to do. i still have to do. its as simple as that. but it may appear that im just trying to use my parents to justify my everywrongdoing. whatever. believe what ever u want.
third. im simply not good enuff for anything. i dun have the luck other ppl have when it comes to lots of things. maybe its not luck and its just me. i dunno. damn stupid useless me.
posted at 6:58 AM
Friday, January 19, 2007
i think i noe what you are thinking of me. i guess u just dun understand my situation. interpret it in whatever way u might like to. theres nothing i can do. im the one stuck in the middle. the one who has to come under pressure. not u. so think of me whatever way u want. say whatever u want to others too. i really just cant adhere to whatever ppl think of me. no one understands. really no one. they just wan me to adhere to whatever is in their best interest. and when something goes wrong. its all my fault. fine. im ok with it. thats just a price of being me.
in many ways im loser/noob/nub/useless. whatever. im just going to give up trying to live my life to please others. i have no best friends. never had. someone that truly understands me. no one even came close. i dunno. but ultimately the only person that will always understand you most will be yourself. no one else. its no wonder. its not as if im really good with words or can make people feel happy. who would want to be my best fren.
so many things running thru my head now. i guess i just have to accept im not as lucky as others. others who are never wrong. its only me. stupid useless me. going by the belief that luck is finite. maybe i will be very lucky in the future. but now is now. never had a dream come through just seem so apt.
i hope no one reads this. i really do. even if no one believes me.
posted at 4:17 AM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Hmp. So i finally mustered up enough effort to blog again. zzz. I am currently umemployed thanks to my mom who kicked up a fuss over every job i found. Apparently she tinks finding a temp job is a piece of cake. zzz. Act. Dunno. Guess i will just laze arnd and wait for the final outcome of my relief teacher application ba. Hope i like get posted to my primary school which is like 500 metres away from my home. Easy to get to work lor. LOL.
Anyway staying at home unemployed sux. There is no one to go out with coz everyone is employed. Plus i get dragged in to do housework all the time. Further more my dad likes to hog the comp for hours in a row. End up i share whatever is miserable amt of free comp time left with my bro. Imagine how lit is left. zzz.
Many things have gone by since the time i last blogged. A levels, Prom are just some of them ba. Im like too lazy to elaborate about them since im like about to doze off any moment. And besides, I DIDNT BULLY ANYONE ON GRAD NITE. zzz. nvm.
Ok. Thats all before i decide to del this post altogether.
posted at 8:23 AM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
well u could say its over ... at least for now ... yesterday marked the last paper for prelims and it ended off with me going to play lan for 5 hours plus with dan me alex hanyang yushu in order of how we sat at the lan shop ... first time i played so long in a row ... and it was the first time i played dota in a long long long time ... not to mentioned i sucked ... but at least i was contented playing ...
now to sum the prelims up in one word ... "flop" ... ppl like dan will tell me to fuck off ... but well ... from the looks at it ... all looks pretty crapped up ... i dun recall a paper that i was confident of doing well but i shld have confidence in myself ... so i say can pass ... later i fail damn sad ... but nvm ... all is over le just have fun while i can ... the feeling now is like getting to breathe in fresh air after being deprieved of oxygen ... wonder what happens to the haemoglobin ...
ai ya ... now can only hope for the best le lor ... got to work harder for a lvls lar ... haizzz ... i got pretty depleted trying to do better for the prelims ... but turns out the results will be same or worse ... but whats over is like already over ... so i heck care ... at least till i get back the papers ... no teachers come and niao me yet (like yushu in the cantenn) ... so i didnt do too badly or too well ... which is a cause for consolation since its more likely to be the former ... lol ...
but now i already ren ming already ... was is meant to be will meant to be ... what was never meant to be will never ever be ... old concept new meaning ... so i just discounted the need to try and work for it ... ppl get sick of the same ending when it always happens ok ??? ... me included ... so better get out of the show quick ... or else later u get "WTF is that lame ending that i have seen in every movie i watched" ... ok i not making sense now ... must be my brain got fried in the prelims ...
Essay Question
"Prelims are bad for brain development in our teens nowadays, in fact, they damage it inreversibly. " Discuss the statement and evaluate to what extend the above statement is true. You are reminded of the need to write this 25 marks essay in an impossible frame of time for noobs like yourself. [25]
hmp ... try write this one out when you are free .. sure got kick one ... yar like kicked in the ass ... rmb the next time your teacher flashes a "U-Got-Owned" smile ... pls return a "Me-Own-U-Big-Time-Next-Time" smile ...
or simply the "Me-Got-Owned-Big-Time" smile ... like me now ... ok so much for crapping ... very sad already ... today cannot dot ... see how 2ml ... haizzz ...
posted at 9:09 PM
Thursday, July 06, 2006
posted at 3:02 AM
Saturday, July 01, 2006
hmp. looks like everyone has posted their post-ct2 feelings. guess its my turn now. ct2 was on crap period man. its just funny about the fact that no matter how much time you are given to study, its just never enuff. look at ct1, i had one WEEK. i found myself racing against time just to finish my revision. look at ct2, i had one MONTH. i found myself racing against time just to finish my revision. yet again ...
well, as for the ct2s, lets go paper by paper. Maths was crap. i came out of the exam hall feeling like i could solve a lot more of the qns that i actually did when i was in there. feeling very regretful that i didnt maximise my revision and racked my brains hard enuff. i think i very dui bu qi mr low. i seriously dun tink i can reach an a lar. but its not impt lor. at a lvls more impt :P:P ...
second paper was g.p . woah. i official declare this the paper of the ct2s man. i managed to flop it so spectacularly that i cant believe it man. i came so close to sleeping during the compre section man. one word to rule it all = "flopped".
third was econs. econs was ok lar. but thats why im scared. everytime i feel ok about a humanities paper, the results get screwed. hmp. nothing much to say about it.
fourth was chem. chem was bad. i screwed up. esp the mcq. nothing to say.
fifth was physics. wah. i love the way mike tay bluffed the crap out of us when he said it was going to be a managable paper. and he actually implemented a foreit system knowing that. act. this is one paper that can screw up (other than g.p) . yeah. im so going to get screwed this time.
hmp. haizzz. my life sux. now i cant play and i dun feel like mugging. crap. end here.
`one day i will learn how to... now i can only bear with it...
posted at 3:12 AM
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